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The first conscious mystical
experience occurred at age three. It served to set the stage for the
entire journey and the realization that would take years to
consciously understand and to perfect. The experience imprinted the
awareness of a feeling that become key to understanding what needs
to be created for our creative spirit to freely unfold.
The event arose because he had a fever that would not go down. So,
the doctors in their wisdom, put him in isolation in the hospital.
He was separated from every one except the few nurses who served the
isolation ward. He remembers one nurse holding him trying to comfort
his crying and intense loneliness he was experiencing. He was told
they called for his mother but she never came - or at that is what
he thought. In reality, it didn’t matter if she came or not. He was
in isolation and she was have been kept from her no matter how much
he called for her or cried. He always figured he was told his mother
was called so that he would relax and go to sleep. Although there
are only a few conscious memories of that experience, there was one
profound memory. The memory was of viewing the room from the corner
up near the ceiling looking down into the room.
In time, he was released from isolation not because his fever
dropped. Rather, he had chose to stop eating. It was not that he
could not eat but he refused to eat. As a three year old he decided
to commit suicide in one of the few ways he knew how and could do at
that age. The doctors become worried. Their response was to remove
him from isolation and allowed him to be with his mother. It was
only many, many years later did he realized there is only one way he
could have the view of the hospital room that held him. He had left
his body and had chosen to die rather than live in isolation from
his mother and his family. Yet, he could not leave. There were
things for him here to do and he had to stay. In essence he was told
to go back and endure until the time was ripe.
How he was told when that time would be and
how he protected his creative spirit during that time are other
stories. He endured by suppressing what he knew and did what
he was told and/or as expected to do for over forty years.
What was clear from this experience, but only realized at the end of
the journey exploring creativity after the
professional path and the
mystical path came back together, was the need for the
nurturing feminine creative energy of Creation. Not female
energy for female energy was available. Nor was it necessarily the
energy of his natural mother for in the end that energy was also
available. Rather it was the energy that is needed for a creation to
grow and unfold true to its nature. A nurturing creative feminine
energy was needed - one that would nourish his creative spirit in
the way it needed to be nourished - not in the way mind wanted to
nourish it or how mind thought it should nourish it.
When the maternal energy was also withdrawn, it was too much for the
child. The child sought to withdraw from life. When the maternal
energy was restored and given the conditions that existed, he
subsequently learned to survive in life by keeping a part of his
creative spirit dormant or suppressed for that part of his being was
never nurtured in the way it needed to be nurtured. This was
necessary so he would not feel the pain of lacking that needed
nourishing energy until conditions were created where it could
awaken and come out.
It was the lack of this nurturing creative feminine energy for his
creative spirit that gave rise to the two paths of his life. Yet,
the separation was necessary for him to gain the experience he
needed to have in this life. Those in his life did the best they
could for what they were given. Female energy and maternal energy
was available. What was needed was another form of energy. It was
the energy he needed for his creative spirit to unfold true to
itself not an energy colored or filtered by the expectations of mind
- his mind or the mind of any other. It could not be give for others
did not have it available to give and the did not know of is
existence.
As this three year old child, he perceived he was separated from the
feminine nurturing energy as he understood it and needed to grow.
The separation was so intense, he would choose to die rather than
remain without that needed energy he perceived as being in, or from,
his mother. Only years latter did he come to the realization of how
important the feminine nurturing energy is to any creative effort.
Without that energy, the creative effort will die. Insufficient
nurturing creative energy will cause growth to be stunted in
someway.
The understanding about the
nurturing feminine creative energy that nurtures a creative
effort eventually became key to the power that lies within the
Releasing Your Unlimited Creativity technology. Although consciously
he was not aware of what he lacked,
the experience imprinted him with a feeling of that lack. The
awareness of that feeling with a conscious mind allowed him to see
what was lacking in his life and what he needed to do to address his
own creative spirit. However, the feeling also became the source of
a very deep empathy for the lives of the people he met. It was the
awareness of that feeling that allowed him to create the critical
mass of conditions that allowed for the Ultimate Accident and to
create the space for a creative spirit to be free to come out and
express itself which combined to create an experiential realization
of the
Oneness/oneness of Creation. In a moment, he saw the Source of
Creation and how it fully manifested Itself in all of Creation.
Overlaid with the experience of “The
Unfolding Flower” that imprinted feeling also became key to
understanding at to how to nurture the creative spirit of another.
In attempting to express the understanding of nurturing feminine
creative energy of Creation and what it means, it can be summarized
as follows. For a creation to manifest and unfold true to itself,
someone needs to a safe space for that creation to grow. For the
creative spirit within an individual that gives the individual life
and nourishes their life to be free to come out and fully express
itself true to its nature, there needs to be someone to hold a safe
space and call forth that creative spirit. To hold a safe space is
to (1) give not what one thinks the creation/creative spirit needs
but what the creation/creative spirit requires for that
creation/creative spirit to be nourished and (2) provide a safe and
secure space so the creation/creative spirit is not threatened or
thwarted as it flows and unfolds when it comes out. Creating the
space for a creation or another’s creative spirit is not something
to be taken lightly. Nor is it necessarily easy to do. It will be
demanding and a challenge to one’s creative ability. One will have
to become a shape shift or shift their shape to accommodate the
needs of the creation or the creative spirit, which every the
individual seeks to manifest.
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